ShirleyComplex

After a little over a month here I've realized how incredibly terrible I am at socializing. I've also realized how little skills I have, and the little desire I have to make them better. I'm not very creative. Being away from people I've kept closest to me is really difficult. I feel like everyone around me is just a puddle, and I miss the ocean. My boyfriend went away for the weekend, and my only other friend went home for the weekend as well. My roommates gone. I'm trying to do homework but it's tough. I feel unmotivated and depressed on most days. I hope it'll get better. Still not sure where I'm going to get any money, I need another 2,30

Dude. How is it that I'm not even in college yet, but it's already so stressful? Filling out all these forms and documents is so difficult by yourself. I'm so frustrated and stessed. I just can't wait to get all this financial aid and deposits and bullshit over with so I can actually enjoy my education. I'm looking forward to having so many art classes! And I'm definitely going to be challenged. Hopefully I'll be up for it. The only thing that seems to calm me down nowadays is my boyfriend. He's so sweet to me. He's very good at getting me relaxed and forgetting about my problems... just like marijuana... My life is becoming a Ke$ha song. . .

Life has been pretty cool. I don't know why I ever doubted myself but I got into the art program I've desired since sophomore year. Also, I've been reading a book on Buddhism and I feel like this might be a prominent thing in my life from now on. I might change my lifestyle completely. Come relax with me and enjoy liberation from the unsatisfactory things in life. Aww yeahh.